I’ve lived with my condition for as long as I can remember. The doctors call it a myriad of things, but the simplest explanation is that my mind sometimes plays tricks on me. I see figures that aren’t there, hear whispers that fade when I turn my head. I’ve learned to live with it, to dismiss these phantoms as mere neurological glitches. But what happened last week was no glitch, and I can’t explain it away with my diagnosis. My name is Mara, and I want to tell you about the night my world tilted.
I live in a small, rural cottage, tucked away from the rest of the world, with only my two dogs, Greta and Bruno, for company. They’re loyal, gentle creatures, but they’ve never been what you’d call ‘guard dogs.’ They barely bark, even at the postman. So when they started growling at the linen closet door one evening, my heart skipped a beat. I was curled up on the sofa, watching a documentary about deep-sea creatures, when Greta’s ears perked up, and she let out a low, menacing rumble from her chest. Bruno joined in, his fur bristling. They both stared at the closet door, which was slightly ajar, as if expecting something to emerge.
‘What is it, girl?’ I asked, my voice barely a whisper. They ignored me, their growls escalating into frantic barking. I’ve never seen them like this, so tense, so alert. I tried to calm them, but they wouldn’t listen. They backed away from the closet, but their eyes never left it. I felt a cold dread seep into my bones. I’ve seen shadowy figures before, brief and peripheral, but this was different. This was a tangible, shared reaction.
The barking echoed through the small room, and I felt an irrational fear that something was about to burst through that door. I called out, ‘Is someone there?’ Silence, except for the dogs’ frenzied noise. Then, as suddenly as it started, they stopped. Their tails drooped, and they whined, pressing themselves against my legs. They looked at me with wide, fearful eyes, and I realized they wanted me to protect them.
I mustered up the courage to approach the closet, my hand trembling. I grabbed the handle, took a deep breath, and yanked it open. Nothing. Just shelves of old towels and a dusty box of winter clothes. But the air inside was cold, unnaturally cold, and I could swear I smelled something musty, like old wood and decay. I closed the door, my heart pounding.
I tried to dismiss it as a false alarm, maybe a mouse had gotten inside. But the dogs remained skittish the rest of the night, following me from room to room, refusing to leave my side. I didn’t sleep much, my mind replaying the incident. The next morning, I noticed the closet door was open again, just a crack. I knew I had closed it.
Over the following days, the presence became more pronounced. Objects would be moved, a dish left on the counter when I knew I’d put it away. Whispered words in my ear that sounded like my own name. And always, that feeling of being watched. I told myself it was my condition, that I was spiraling. But the dogs saw it too. They would stare at corners, growl at the air, and sometimes they would cower as if someone had threatened them.
One night, I was wakeful, listening to the wind howl outside. Suddenly, I heard a faint creaking, like a floorboard. Greta lifted her head, her hackles raised. Bruno whimpered. The sound came again, closer. I sat up in bed, my breath shallow. The door to my room, which I had locked, slowly creaked open. Not all the way, just a few inches. The hallway beyond was dark, but I could have sworn I saw a shimmering, like heat haze, in the doorway.
I grabbed the flashlight on my nightstand and clicked it on. The beam cut through the darkness, illuminating the empty hallway. I got out of bed, my legs weak, and pushed the door wider. The air was cold, and I could see my breath. I swept the light across the hall, but there was nothing. Yet I felt a presence, so close I could almost touch it.
Then, from behind me, a voice, clear and close, whispered, ‘You can see me now.’ I spun around, but the room was empty. The dogs were whimpering, hiding under the bed. My flashlight flickered, and I saw her—a woman standing in the corner, semi-transparent, with long, dark hair and eyes that were voids. She smiled, a crescent of malice, and then she was gone.
I didn’t sleep that night. The next day, I called my therapist, but I couldn’t find the words to explain. I felt like I was losing my grip on reality. But the dogs’ reaction was too real to be my imagination. And there were other things—a cold spot in my bedroom, a photograph that had been moved from the wall, and a single word written in the dust on the coffee table: ‘SITAYA.’
I researched the name. Sitaya. It sounded ancient, maybe from a lost language. As I delved deeper, I found a legend about a female spirit who was wronged in a past life, seeking revenge on the descendants of her tormentors. I felt a chill when I realized that my cottage was built on land that was once a battlefield, where many were buried unmarked.
One evening, as I was sitting by the fire, I felt a presence behind me. I turned, and there she was again, more solid this time. She was close, close enough that I could see the despair in her hollow eyes. She raised a hand, and I saw a gash on her wrist, as if she had been bled dry. She opened her mouth, but instead of a scream, I heard a wail inside my head, a thousand voices crying out in agony. They spoke of betrayal, of being buried alive, of an ancient curse.
I knew then that she wasn’t just a figment of my psychosis. She was real, a malevolent entity tied to this land. And she had been waiting for someone like me, someone whose mind was a permeable veil between worlds.
I am writing this to warn others, but also to make sense of it. I can no longer tell what’s real and what’s my illness. But one thing I know for sure: whatever I saw that night was not a trick of my mind. Sitaya is real, and she is hungry for something I can’t give. As I sit here, typing these words, I see her in the reflection of my window, watching me. Her lips move, and I hear her voice, not with my ears but with my very soul: ‘You are not alone.’ And I know, with terrifying certainty, that she’s right.”}