The house my father built sat on a ridge above the town of Morrow’s Landing, where the Fraser River bent like a fractured spine. It was a tall, narrow thing, three floors of timber and glass, with an attic that no one visited except for storing Christmas ornaments and the occasional moth-eaten suitcase. My mother called it ‘the watchtower’ because from the top floor you could see the whole valley, the sawmill stacks coughing grey smoke, the train tracks threading through the forest. But I always felt it was watching us, not the other way around.
I was nine when my parents came back from Germany with the clock. It was a strange little thing, no taller than my forearm, carved from walnut and brass. The face was enameled white, with delicate black numerals, and a miniature moon phase that had frozen in some long-ago phase. It didn’t work; the pendulum hung dead behind a glass door. My father’s grandfather had insisted they take it. ‘It’s been in the family for generations,’ he said, pressing it into my mother’s hands. ‘It will bring you luck.’ My mother smiled, but I saw her shiver as she placed it on the mantelpiece in the living room.
At first, the clock was just a dusty ornament. But I started to notice things. At night, I would wake to the sound of ticking—soft, rhythmic, like a heartbeat coming from downstairs. When I crept down, the clock was still, but the air felt heavy, as if something had just been breathing there. I told my mother, but she dismissed it. ‘Old houses make noises,’ she said. But she stopped wearing her wedding ring, and I often heard her crying in the bathroom, the water running to hide the sound.
Then my father started spending more time in his workshop, a shed at the edge of the property. He’d always been a quiet man, but now he grew distant, speaking in short bursts, his eyes lingering on the clock as if it held answers. One night, I found him standing in the living room, staring at the clock’s face, his hands trembling. ‘It’s counting,’ he whispered. ‘Counting what?’ I asked. But he just shook his head and sent me to bed.
The first change came in the attic. My father had forbidden us to go up there, but I was curious. I found a staircase behind a false panel, leading to a low-ceilinged space filled with old furniture and banker’s boxes. In the corner, draped in a white sheet, was a full-sized grandfather clock—identical to the little one on the mantelpiece, but larger, with a crack running down its face. Above it hung a brass key, grimy with age. I took the key, and as I turned to leave, I heard a sound like a sigh, and the larger clock began to tick.
From that night, time itself seemed to warp. Days bled into nights, and the ticking followed me everywhere—even in the yard, where the wind carried it like a pulse. My mother grew pale, her eyes ringed with dark circles. She took to wearing long sleeves, and I saw bruises on her wrist once. My father was always gone, returning late with sawdust on his boots and a wild look in his eyes. I found him once in his workshop, surrounded by blueprints, sketching bizarre gears and pendulums. ‘I’m fixing it,’ he said, not looking at me. ‘Fixing what?’ I asked. He pointed to the sky. ‘The clock that runs on souls.’
One evening, my mother drove into town and didn’t come back. The police searched, but they found nothing. My father refused to speak of her, locking himself in the workshop for days. When he emerged, he was gaunt, his eyes sunken, and he carried a small brass gear in his palm. ‘She traded herself,’ he said. ‘For you.’ I didn’t understand, but the clock in the living room was now ticking, its pendulum swinging, and the moon phase had advanced to a sliver of black.
I began to investigate. I found my mother’s diary hidden in her sewing basket. The last entry read: ‘He says the clock needs time, but all time is borrowed. I have to give what I have. For her. For my daughter.’ The pages before were filled with sketches of the same clock, and notes about a legend: that my great-great-grandfather, a clockmaker, had struck a deal with something nameless to save his own child. The clock, the diary said, was a prison for that something, and every generation must feed it time—years, memories, life—or it would break free.
I confronted my father. ‘It’s true,’ he said, his voice hollow. ‘The clock isn’t a keepsake. It’s a lock. And the key is in the attic.’ He clutched my arm. ‘I should have let it take me. But it wanted her. It always wants the mothers.’ He pulled back his sleeve, and I saw the skin on his arm was like old paper, translucent, with gears visible beneath, turning slowly. ‘I’m almost spent,’ he said. ‘It’s your turn now.’
I ran. I grabbed the brass key from the attic and raced to the living room. The little clock was vibrating, its hands spinning. I unlocked the glass door and reached inside, trying to stop the pendulum. But the moment my fingers touched it, the room went dark, and a cold wind blew through the house. When I opened my eyes, I was standing in the attic, facing the large grandfather clock. Its door was open, and inside, instead of a mechanism, there was a void—black, endless, pricked with tiny lights like distant stars. A voice, like the sound of gears grinding, echoed from within: ‘It is time.’
I reached for the key, but it was gone. The voice laughed, a dry, clicking sound. ‘You have the same choice,’ it said. ‘Give me your years, or I take the one you love.’ I thought of my mother, gone. I thought of my father, a hollowed shell. And I thought of my own future—a lifetime of dread, of watching clocks, of counting seconds. I looked at the void and stepped forward.
The next morning, the house stood quiet. The clock in the living room was still, its hands frozen at 3:33. My father was in the kitchen, making coffee, his skin back to normal. He didn’t remember my mother, or the clock. But I felt different. I could feel time moving inside me, like a second heartbeat. I knew I had given something—a part of my life, maybe twenty years, maybe more. It would come for me when it was due.
I left that house at eighteen and never returned. But sometimes, when I close my eyes, I see the clock, its pendulum swinging, and I hear a child’s voice counting, ‘One, two, three…’ And I know that one day, I will go back. We all do. The clock is patient, and time runs forever.