It was the night after Christmas, around 1:30 AM. Our church had organized a carol service for the late shift workers at St. Mary’s Hospital in the industrial district of Chennur. Since the church van was in the shop, a few of us volunteered our cars. I was riding in the lead car, a dusty blue sedan, with my friends Arjun, Meera, and the driver, my father’s colleague, Mr. Ramesh. We had just finished singing ‘Auld Lang Syne’ to a group of nurses, and the good cheer was still warming our chests as we headed back along the old coastal highway.
The road was a narrow, winding strip that hugged the dark waters of the bay, lined with stunted palms and the occasional abandoned warehouse. The moon was hidden behind thick clouds, making the world beyond our headlights a black void. We were all quiet, humming softly, when the car’s radio crackled. A station was playing a slow, mournful hymn, ‘Nearer My God to Thee.’ It was eerie, how perfectly it fit the mood, so we left it on.
Just as we approached the old mangroves, Mr. Ramesh’s hands tightened on the wheel. His shoulders stiffened. The car gave a violent lurch to the left, then the right, like we were on ice. I thought he’d hit a patch of oil, but when I looked at him, his face was ashen, his eyes locked on the road ahead. The car swerved again, so sharply that a hubcap came loose and clattered into the night. I grabbed the door handle, Meera started praying. It felt like five minutes of pure terror, though it might have been only seconds. Then, just as suddenly, the car straightened out, and the humming of the engine was the only sound.
We all sat in stunned silence, breathing in ragged gasps. Arjun leaned forward and asked, ‘Ramesh, what happened? Why did you lose control?’
Mr. Ramesh didn’t answer at first. He just stared at the road, his hands trembling on the wheel. When he spoke, his voice was barely above a whisper, but it cut through the quiet like a knife. ‘There was a man… crossing the road. He was walking, very slowly, from the mangroves to the water side. I swerved to avoid him, but the wheel just… went dead. And then…’ He paused, swallowing hard. ‘Then he was gone. Vanished right in front of the headlights.’
We exchanged glances, not knowing what to say. The hymn on the radio had ended, replaced by dead air. But then, Meera whispered, pointing, ‘Wait, look at the back seat.’ We all turned. There, on the back seat, was a small, crumpled piece of paper we hadn’t noticed before. It was a hospital visitor’s pass, dated that day, with a name we didn’t recognize: ‘M. Fernandes.’ And written in faded ink underneath was a verse from the Bible: ‘I am the resurrection and the life.’
We pulled over at the next gas station, and Mr. Ramesh called the church. The hospital’s coordinator confirmed that a man named Fernandes had been on duty that night, but he’d died three hours earlier of a heart attack in the ICU. They said his body was still in the morgue.
No one spoke for the rest of the drive home. But as we passed the mangroves again, this time in the other direction, I looked out the window and glimpsed, for a split second, a figure standing among the roots, watching us go. It was dressed in a hospital gown, and it was waving. Not a friendly wave, but a slow, deliberate gesture, like a goodbye. Or a possession.
We never did carol on that route again. And to this day, whenever I hear ‘Nearer My God to Thee,’ I see those headlights, and the empty road ahead, and I wonder if it was actually the hymn that drew him to us. Or if he was always there, waiting, for the next car to pass.