My grandmother, Elowen, was the only one who ever believed me. When I was a child, I’d sit on the peeling linoleum floor of her kitchen, tracing the pattern of stained roses with my finger, and tell her about the not-quite-there presences that lingered in our house. They’d rattle the radiator, make the curtain billow even with the window shut, and sometimes, when I was alone in my room, they’d press a cold indent into the mattress beside me, as if an unseen weight had settled to listen. She’d nod, her eyes muted as river stones, and say, ‘They’re just looking for a way out, child. You’re a doorway.’ My parents called it an overactive imagination, a phase. Eventually, I learned to close the door.
Ten years ago, after Elowen passed, I began to research the history of my father’s family, who were of the Ojibwe people. My grandmother’s mother was known to have ‘the sight,’ and I became obsessed with unlocking that part of myself. I’d sit in the musty basement of our family home, where boxes of old photographs and letters were stored, and I’d press my palms against the cool concrete, trying to feel something. I’d wander through cemeteries at dusk, hoping for a chill, a whisper, a sign. Nothing came. I was hollow, a radio tuned to a dead frequency, and I accepted my disconnect with a quiet sorrow.
In 2004, my father died. He was a quiet man who read the newspaper at breakfast and smelled of sawdust and motor oil. His death was sudden, a stroke in the driveway while he was loading tools into the truck. I stood at his funeral, dry-eyed, feeling nothing but a vast emptiness. But that night, back in my childhood bedroom, the door shut. I was lying in bed, staring at the ceiling, when I felt it: a cold patch of air on my arm, like a breath, and then a familiar weight settled at the foot of the bed. My father’s spirit, or what I believed to be his, was here. I could hear him, not with my ears, but with a different instrument—a chime in my chest that resonated with his presence. He whispered, ‘I left something in the garage.’ I smelled motor oil.
Since then, the floodgates have opened. It’s not just my father. I walk into a grocery store and feel a cold spot near the dairy aisle, where an old man had a heart attack last year. I step into a friend’s house and my gut clenches, my hands tremble, and I see a flicker in the corner of my vision—a child’s doll that wasn’t there a moment ago. The spirits are always there, watching, waiting. Some are benign, like the gentle woman in the used bookstore who hums old folk songs. Others are hungry.
Last month, I bought an old farmhouse on the edge of Hollow Creek, hoping to get away from the constant thrum of urban spirits. The house had been vacant for twenty years, its walls stained with moisture, its windows clouded with grime. The real estate agent said the previous owner’s family had moved away after a tragedy. I didn’t ask for details. I thought I could handle it. I was wrong.
The first night, I woke to the sound of knocking. It came from the walls, three taps at a time, as if something was trying to communicate in code. I lay there, heart pounding, listening to the rhythmic thumps. The floorboards creaked. I pulled the blanket up to my chin, feeling a cold dread seep through the mattress. Then, a whisper, so faint I almost missed it: ‘Get out.’ I did not get out. I got up, walked to the kitchen, and poured myself a glass of water. My hands were shaking. I told myself it was just the old house settling.
But it wasn’t. The next morning, I found a dead bird on the porch, its neck twisted. The day after, the mirror in the bathroom fogged over with a single word written in the condensation: ‘RUN.’ I called my friend Marcus, the only person I’d told about my visions, and he said, ‘You need to leave. That’s not a spirit. That’s something else.’ He told me about the history of the property: a farmer named Josiah Thorne had lived there with his wife and two children. In 1932, Thorne accused his wife of witchcraft and burned her in the barn. His children disappeared shortly after. Thorne was found hanging from a beam in the attic.
I should have left. But I was drawn to the attic, to the beam where he hung. I stood there, looking at the worn rope marks, and I felt a pull, a tug on my sternum like a hook. I closed my eyes, and I saw him: a gaunt figure with hollow eyes, his fingers like claws, reaching for me. He said, ‘You see them, don’t you? Good. I’ve been waiting for a doorway.’ At that moment, I realized what I’d become. I’m not just a psychic; I’m a beacon. And something old and patient has been waiting for someone like me to walk through its threshold.
Now, I sit in the living room, the windows dark, my laptop open to a search page for ‘ways to close a psychic connection.’ But every time I try to write, the cursor moves on its own, spelling out a single word: ‘STAY.’ I feel his presence everywhere, in the settling of the house, in the echo of my footsteps, in the way the dust motes dance in the slanted light. I can hear the whispers of all the spirits I’ve ever encountered, a cacophony of voices, and above them all, the deep, grinding voice of Josiah Thorne. He wants me to open the door wide, to let him in fully. And I’m afraid that I can’t resist. Because in a strange way, I’ve become addicted to the fear, to the feeling of being seen by them, to the certainty that I am not alone. But I know that if I stay, I will become one of them, a permanent resident of this house, whispering to the next curious soul who walks in. And I’m not sure that’s the worst fate.
Tonight, I hear the knocking again, three taps. I walk to the door, my hand on the knob, and I laugh, a hollow sound that scares me more than the knocking. I open the door, and the porch is empty. But the air is thick with the smell of smoke and burning cedar. I close my eyes, and I see the barn in flames, a woman screaming, and Josiah watching with a black smile. He sees me seeing him. He says, ‘Welcome home, doorway.’ I close the door, and I sit down on the floor, my back against the wood, and I wait. For what, I don’t know. But I’ve stopped running. Perhaps I never could.