I’m twelve now, and I’ve lived in this old apartment building for almost seven years. It’s not the kind of place people usually stay long—the radiators clank all night, the paint peels in strips like sunburn—but my family can’t afford much else. The hallway smells like boiled cabbage and stale cigarettes, and the elevator hiccups halfway to every floor. I’ve seen things here that I can’t explain, but I’ve learned to keep them to myself.
When we first moved in, I woke up to a man sitting at the foot of my bed. He was old, with a face like crumpled newspaper and hands that trembled like leaves. He wore a gray suit that looked like it had been buried and dug up. I thought he was my great-grandpa, come to visit from the nursing home. He didn’t speak, just stared at me with eyes like wet stones. Then he blinked—slowly, like a camera shutter closing—and vanished. I never told anyone, not even when I found out my great-grandpa died the same week. Maybe that’s why I forget things now.
My memory has gaps, like missing frames in a film. I’ll be in the middle of a thought, and then nothing. Just static. My mom says I’m just a dreamer, but I know it’s something else. It’s this place. It eats moments.
One birthday—I think I was seven—I was running down the stairs to see my cake. Halfway down, I felt a cold hand press flat between my shoulder blades. It wasn’t a push; it was more like a suggestion. My feet slipped, and I tumbled down the rest of the steps. I landed at the bottom, my arm bent at a wrong angle, pain shooting sparks behind my eyes. The doctor said I was a centimeter from a compound fracture. I still have the scar. I don’t remember the cake. I don’t remember the party. All I remember is the hand—solid and cold, like a mannequin’s—and then falling.
Last week, on my twelfth birthday, my aunt and her fiancé came over. They were talking in the kitchen, and my dad brought up the little boy. He said that sometimes he hears a kid asking for ‘coke to drink,’ but there’s no soda in the fridge. He thinks it’s from his brother’s house, where they have a spirit of a little boy who drowned in the pool. He laughed when he said it, but his eyes were tight.
That night, after everyone left, I was lying in bed, staring at the crack in the ceiling that looks like a river. I heard a voice—thin, like wind through a bottle—say, ‘Can you play with me?’ It came from the corner, where the shadows clump together. I didn’t answer. I pulled the covers over my head, but I could feel something watching, patient as a spider.
Then I thought about Chloe, my old dog. She used to sleep on my feet during thunderstorms, a warm weight that made me feel safe. I missed her so much it ached. That’s when I felt it: a pressure on my feet, just like her. But heavier. And cold. I looked down, and the blanket was indented in the shape of paws. I swear I could smell her—that dusty dog smell mixed with wet earth. But it was wrong. It smelled like something that had been buried too long.
I don’t know if it was really Chloe, or if the house was just showing me what I wanted to see. But ever since that night, the little boy’s voice has gotten louder. Last night, I heard it right next to my ear: ‘I know you can hear me.’ And I felt something grip my ankle, fingers like ice, pulling.
I’m writing this now, in the dark, with my door locked. There’s a handprint on the wall that wasn’t there before—small, child-sized. The radiator is clanking, but underneath it, I can hear a child humming. It’s the same tune my mom used to hum to me when I was little. But it’s off-key, and the rhythm is wrong.
I don’t think Chloe came to protect me. I think she came to say goodbye. Because whatever is in this apartment has been wearing her shape, and now it’s wearing mine. I looked in the mirror this morning, and for a second, I saw a boy with hollow eyes staring back, and my reflection was smiling when I wasn’t.
I’m not sure how much longer I’ll be me. But if you find this, please tell my mom I’m sorry. And tell her the coke is under the sink. Maybe that will finally make him leave.